Over the years I've been a rock. There are many sides on my rock. There
are sparkling side of my rock, but there's also some hideous part you
don't wanna see.
My sparkling academic achievement, I always went to the best school in
town you name it. I went to the medical school of my dream, graduate on
time with almost cum laude. I also got a scholarship for a student
exchange in Europe. Amazing experience. Then I got a job in Jakarta as a
flying doctor, traveling to many places, saving lives, got paid really
well.
My love life sucks. I had one puppy love during high school. Nothing
during my university years (maybe I was too busy). But, thank God I had
someone right now. I don't really know where it leads us, but we'll see.
My friends. I have few good friends during high school, which we still
keep in touch until now. They're the best, our days in high school were
the best days. Our friendship continues during our college years, we
spent those lonely Saturday night together, sharing stories, a cup of
tea, and discounted desert after 9 pm. Sometimes we spent hours on the
phone talking about anything. And after college, we still visit each
other, having a Sunday brunch or just a quick meeting on the lunch
break.
My depression. I don't know how it starts, but someday I just don't
wanna wake up and get out of my room. Maybe I have to pay the price for
my sparkling side. There are days when I don't even brush my teeth or
shower. On those days I didn't have any inspiration, I caught up too
deeply in my routine life and forget there are more things in the world
to see. So, sometimes I need to slow down a little, take a deep breath,
do yoga, or even smell a flower. Dancing keeps me sane as I release my
dark side with it. I slowly rise and fight against my depression. And
I'm trying not to be ashamed of it. Cause I've been a rock.
-Indra Sahril-
191115
Cafe Halaman
CS Bandung Writers' Club 8th Meeting
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